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Sunday, March 17, 2024

Seed Potatoes - A Memoir

College student or not, whenever I went home for the summer to my 220-acre family farm, I could not escape the endless cycle of farm chores. Today's chore was cutting up seed potatoes, a task my dad called, "character building." 

Each potato had to be cut into multiple pieces wherever there was a shoot sticking out. These smaller pieces would be planted in our garden for the fall potato crops.

The earthy aroma of these seed potatoes filled the living room as hundreds of them lay scattered across the floor. My dad and two brothers had hauled bushel after bushel of these potatoes into the house and dumped them in the middle of our living room floor, creating a veritable Mount Potato.  


With knives in hand, we dutifully went to work cutting each one into smaller pieces wherever a shoot or beady eye poked through. About 1/4 way through the phone rang.

“It’s for you, Cindy,” my mom says.

I pick up the phone, wondering who it could be. I was home from college for the summer and no where near any of my new friends. “Hello?"

“Hi Cindy, it’s Bill.” 

“Oh, hi Bill." My heart skips a beat, while thoughts of "
What is he doing calling me? He lives in Newark, two hours away. How did he get my number?" are running through my head.

“What are you doing?” he asks. 

“Oh, just some stuff around the house,” I say, suddenly self-conscious of my unglamorous reality and not wanting him to know what I’m actually doing. 

To understand my utter discombobulation, you need to know a bit about Bill. His family is the pillar of his community. His grandfather was a doctor and has a school named after him. His father is retired, but was a Naval Academy grad, an admiral in the navy with his own ship, an aide to President Roosevelt, and the head of Civil Defense. His mom was a grad of University of Hawaii and had been a reporter for the Washington Post. They actually met at the White House, no less!

In contrast, my family were farmers. My dad had an 8th grade education, my mom was an LPN, and I went to college on a scholarship. There was definitely a cultural divide between us.

“I’m here in Lewes,” he continues. “Can I come see you?”

Thoughts are racing through my mind. "I'm sure not ready for this. We haven't been dating that long! He’ll see us at our worst. We’re dirty from farm work. We live in a house built from a WW2 POW camp. And, we currently have Mount Potato as a centerpiece in the middle of our living room."

I decide to let him come. After all, he’s going to find out who I am sooner or later, and I really do want to see him. 

“Sure,” I say, “Come on over.” I mentally prepare myself that this could be his first and last visit. 

Less than fifteen minutes later he arrives. I don't remember his reaction; but knowing Bill, he took it all in and never showed any surprise or emotion. That's just the way he is. This, however, I do remember: he came, he saw, and yet he still married me. 

Although he now has Alzheimer's, I'd like to think that some part of him still remembers that day, fifty-five years ago, when he showed up amid the seed potatoes and swept me off my feet. As the Marvin Gaye and Tammy Terrell song says, "Ain't no mountain high enough. . ." to keep me from getting to you, babe. Even Mount Potato!

Sunday, March 10, 2024

Adventures

Adventures, to me, are experiences, not necessarily destinations. My favorite adventures are the ones I took with my kids when they were growing up. After our school day, I would gather up snacks, pack the kids in the car, pick up a couple of their friends, and head off for a walk at one of the many outdoor parks nearby.


In Virginia Beach, the adventure of choice was often a swampy walk on the Bald Cypress Trail. We’d scurry across the wooden bridges that spanned the murky, black water, smelling of sulphur mixed with honeysuckle and pine. We’d climb over fallen, lichen-covered tree limbs that attempted to block our way. The kids were delighted when they discovered “secret” chambers in rotted tree trunks; a perfect stage for playing hide and seek.


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No matter which path we took, skinny Loblolly pines stretched up high in the sky as if touching heaven itself. Spanish moss swept down from the branches like hair on a troll from one of our fairy tale books. 


If we were quiet enough, we’d meet a salamander, frogs of all shapes and sizes, and even an occasional Nerodia erythrogaster or water snake. The air was alive with the quiet noises of nature: birds twittering, insects buzzing, and squirrels scampering; only interrupted by children's' happy laughter. 


 

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 In Pennsylvania, we were a mere ten-minute drive from the Appalachian Trail. After school, we'd grab our German Shepherd, Peppercorn, along with a few friends, and drive out for a day of hiking on the enormous boulders that lined the rugged pathways. The scenery was breath taking: mountains, forests, and overhanging cliffs that sink the pit of your stomach when you look down to the bottom hundreds of feet below. 


If we were lucky, we’d see deer, foxes, and rabbits. Occasionally, we'd meet someone hiking up the trail from Georgia. These folks always enjoyed stopping to talk about their adventures like we were old acquaintances.


I loved watching my kids experience the outdoors, enjoy their friends, and learn about nature. These are my favorite adventures and ones I will never forget.

 

 

Thursday, March 7, 2024

Getting Older - Memoir

I thought getting older meant I’d be smarter. Don’t gray hairs prove wisdom? How come I forget where I put my keys? Or why can’t I remember that word I’m trying to say? Senior moments definitely don’t equal smarter. However, I do find I’m smarter in one way. I’m smart enough to know that I’m not as smart as I thought I was. Now, that’s smart! 


I thought getting older meant I would travel and see the world. My goal, among other places, was to visit Ireland; but no one mentioned that getting older might arrive before I had the money saved to go that far. According to Ancestry DNA, I’m only 5% Irish, anyway. So, I pivot. Let’s stay in America.


I thought getting older meant I would have children, grandchildren, and great grandchildren bustling around the holiday table, enjoying roasted turkey, stuffing with gravy, and tart cranberry sauce. I would spend my time reading my favorite childhood stories to all of my genetic offspring. No one reminded me that my children had to have children for that to happen. Too late. Should I adopt? I do have a foster street cat! I wonder if she would like to hear me read, The Iliad?



Getting older certainly didn’t turn out to be what I expected; that is true. I do travel, up and down Highway 45, to Houston to visit my husband of 54 years who has Alzheimers. He doesn’t remember when I’ve been, but at least I know I haven’t forgotten him. And I often take side trips to visit new friends, walk the trails, or shop for craft supplies. 


I take more prescriptions now. I have a missing thyroid, high blood pressure, high cholesterol, etc. Allergies strike now and then and my joints ache. I spend a lot of time sitting with my back against a heating pad, trying to cook the arthritis out. 


I find it easier to gain weight now, as well. One Kolache yields an extra five pounds an hour or so it seems. I spend much of my time watching my diet. Don’t add too much salt! Quit eating white flour and white sugar! Make sure you drink a gallon or so of water every day! Does coffee count? 


But getting older has it’s ups as well. I’ve met many new and interesting people here in Galveston. People I’ve grown to love and think of as extended family. I’ve experienced new learning adventures at OLLI’s including classes in international cuisine, memoir writing, artificial intelligence, and classical literature. I’ve tackled new skills like piano lessons, how to play AZUL, and how to make Spanakopita. 



Getting older also gives me freedom. I don’t worry about wearing the wrong clothes, winning arguments, or expressing myself honestly. There just isn’t enough time in my day to worry about these things. I want to smell the roses.


In spite of the negatives of getting older, I’m happy I made it this far. As my dear father-in-law used to say, “Consider the alternative!” Getting older definitely has its benefits. 

Wednesday, March 6, 2024

Chapter 2: The Landlord - A Deadly Dose of Disorder by Cindy Downes

     As I put the last of the groceries away, I hear heavy footsteps climbing the stairs. “Oh crap,” I say as I spot my landlord, Alec. Oreo barks, jumps up and down and runs around in circles, while I quickly pick up dog toys, newspapers, and coffee mugs before opening the door. 
    “Alec, what do you want,” I ask?“I need to discuss your lease,” he says, pushing his way through the door. I roll my eyes. Typical for him; he pushes his way through life.Alec picks up Oreo and tosses him off the lounge chair, thumps his butt down, and reclines his feet up.
    “How about some coffee,” he demands. 
    You might think I’m his housecleaner, I say to myself as I pop a Starbucks pod in the Kuerig. “Cream and sugar,” I ask?
    “Nope, black,” he says. “Got anything sweet to go with it?”
    After he’s comfortably settled with coffee and a chocolate chip cookie, he pulls out a lease and tosses it at me.
    I scan the five-page, size-8-font document and jerk my head back with a loud “What is this?”
    Alec swallows his cookie practically whole and drinks off the top of his coffee with a loud slurp. “What is what?” he asks, wiping his hand across his mouth.
    I notice a chocolate chip fall on his designer jeans, but I’m not concerned about that. I’m too distraught at what I see in the lease. My hands are shaking as I say, “You raised my rent $200 a month!”
    “Inflation,” he says. “Everybody is dealing with inflation these days and landlords are no different.
    “But you haven’t fixed the rotten door jamb or my dishwasher or the holes in the bathroom ceiling.”
    “I fixed your door jamb, just last week,” he says with a snarl.
    “You nailed the broken pieces back into place! That’s not fixed. All you did was prevent the rotten pieces from falling down.”
    “It worked, didn’t it? Besides, I’m going to remodel this place eventually.”
    “What about the dishwasher?” I ask.
    “Your dishwasher works. I ran it through two cycles and every cycle performed exactly as required.”
    “Sure, it works, but it doesn’t clean my dishes! I have to scrub them clean first or they come out as dirty as they go in. That’s not fixed.”
    Alec grabs his mug, lifts it towards me, and says, “I’ll have another cup.”
    I grab the cup and head back towards the kitchen as he yells after me, “And don’t forget the cookie. It was a bit stale, but it’s better than nothing.”
    By this time, I’m fuming, but I get his damn coffee and cookie and sit back down. I return my attention to the lease and notice he also increased the lease to two years. “What the hell is this,” I say, pointing to the lease. “Two years! You expect me to sign a two-year lease for this hell hole?”
    Alec takes a big slurp and sits back in his chair with a smug grin. “This is beach property, lady. I could be making thousands a month if this was an AirB&B. I’m doing you a favor.” 
    “AirB&B! That’s a joke, right? No one would rent this place as a vacation home. The walls have holes in them, the floor is warped, carpet is stained, stairs are breaking, the outside hasn’t been painted in God-knows when. You can’t be serious!”
    “I’m serious. Now are you going to sign the lease or what,” he finishes his coffee and begins to get up. Oreo sits back on her haunches and growls up at him. 
    I begin to analyze the options in my mind. Not many, I admit. I’m paying an enormous amount to keep Richard in Assisted Living. I couldn’t keep him home any longer. He was falling down and wandering. 
    At 250 pounds, there was no way I could lift him, so I was calling the ambulance on a regular basis to help me get him up. He began to wander out of the house and then forget where he was. Luckily, I say this tongue in cheek, he’s visually impaired so he doesn’t have a driver’s license, or he probably would have had silver alerts as well. 
    My children, Crystal and Cameron, insisted it was time to place him in a care home. The only one on the island I could afford was close by, but not the best place for him. It has no memory care. I really need to get him into a place with memory care but that costs even more money. All this is going through my mind as I ponder the lease in front of me.
    There is nothing on the island that is this cheap, even with a $200/month increase. I just can’t afford to move right now. I’ll have to cut back more on groceries and whatever else I can think of, but at least I can still be here on the island with Richard and the kids. I’ll have a roof over my head, even if it does leak now and then. Better than being on the street. I don’t want to have to compete with Ron on 61st and Broadway! 
    “Fine,” I say, grabbing a pen from my desk. “I’ll sign your lease, but at least fix the hole in my bathroom ceiling.” I scribble my signature across the lease and hand it back to him.
    “Sure,” he says as he pushes off of the recliner and waddles his 300 lb frame out the door. “Next week. I’ll take care of it next week.”
    I shut the door after him and blow out a big breath. Exasperated is mild for what I’m really feeling. How am I going to pay for this and assisted living, too?
 
     

Chapter 1: Connie - A Deadly Dose of Disorder by Cindy Downes

Maybe I'll finish this book if I post the chapters on my blog in the order I write them. So, my Dear Readers, you are now going to get an unedited, preview of A Deadly Dose of Disorder, written by yours truly, Cindy Downes. There will be all kinds of errors and inconsistencies, but it will be fun. Let me know if you spot anything really crazy, especially inconsistencies- I need all the help I can get. I'll try to write and post a chapter a week? Every other week? Every month? Not sure. We'll just see how it goes. So, here's Chapter 1.

 Stacking groceries in my brand new rolling cart for stairs, I glance up at my apartment. No, it’s not much, but it’s home for now. The turquoise-blue paint is peeling and faded from the hot summer sun and salty sea air. The wood around the windows is slowly rotting from the moisture and island critters enjoying their lunch. The air condition sticking out the back window is rusted, but it does work.

My home, owned by Alec Thorne, sits behind a beautiful, historic mansion, also owned by Alec Thorne. He lives there as well. On the other side of a skinny, gravel-covered, trash-can-lined alley is another beautiful, historic home, which is also owned by Alec Thorne. This is why I call my home, “The Rose Between Two Thornes.” 

At least it’s a house instead of the tiny garage AirB&B I rented when I first arrived in Galveston a year ago. My new, or should I say, current home has one bedroom, a bath, a galley kitchen, a living room and a small area for dining. Downstairs is a laundry and some area for storage, which I use for my crafting room. 

I had to move from a beautiful, two-bedroom apartment I had rented near the beach to this place after placing Richard, my husband who has Alzheimer’s, into the Shady Rest Assisted Living Home. His condition had gotten to the point where even with at-home help, I could no longer safely take care of him. The cost of the nursing home came as quite a shock. It takes most of our income, so, to make ends meet, I moved into this very-run-down rental last year. It cut my rent by $600, so it’s worth it for now. My kids, Crystal and Cameron, help out as needed so I have no complaints. 

Dragging the heavy wheeled cart up the stairs is not easy even if this is supposed to be made for stairs. I had hoped to find a place without stairs, but that is almost impossible in Galveston. Most of the places are built with the idea that it will flood here off and on, so houses on stilts are the norm. 

As I struggle with the key to unlock the door, I hear Oreo barking and pacing behind the door. Oreo is my rescue dog - a Shizhu-Jack Russell mix. She’s the love of my life now that I’m alone. 

Oreo is twelve years old, but she acts like she’s five. She loves to take walks, chase squirrels, and play “Bed Pickle Ball.” While she stands on my bed, I stand at the foot of the bed and throw her ball against the wall behind the headboard. She jumps up, chases the ball as it bounces back to me, and tries to catch it. If she jumps up and hits it with her head and I say, “Yeah, a headbanger!” If she catches the ball, then we begin the chase around the house. She jumps off the bed, runs to the living room, around the sofa, through the galley kitchen, and back to the bedroom. I love that she gets so excited about a game, and it provides a bit of exercise for both of us.

I set my groceries on the dinette and pick Oreo up. “I’m home,” I say.


Tuesday, March 5, 2024

Moving to Galveston- Part 1

The COVID pandemic was in full force in January, 2021, the year we moved to Galveston. I wanted to make the move without stopping, avoiding any chance encounters with pandemic germs. However, driving 9-1/2 hours in one day was impossible as I was responsible for my husband, Bill, a cat named Felix who hates to travel, and a dog named Oreo who thinks travel is simply an adventure for discovering new sniffs. 

 

So, we spent two nights in hotels: the night of the move in Tulsa and again south of Dallas. Each night, before bringing my menagerie into our hotel room, I bombarded it with a high powered, disinfectant spray. I sprayed everywhere: doorknobs, drawer pulls, sinks, toilet, tv remote, clock, even the bedspreads. Nothing escaped.

“I’m paranoid,” I decided as I wondered who slept here last. Did they wear masks? Did they use hand sanitizer?  What if they had COVID?

Bill and I were both in our 70s, overweight, and had high blood pressure. In other words, we were high risks. There were no vaccines for this disease and masks were scarce. My brother had made us cloth ones to get us through until masks were available to buy. So that was something.

Bathrooms breaks and meal stops were also a problem, at least for Bill and the animals. If it was only me, it would be no problem. I don’t drink and I don’t pee - at least not very often. But between Oreo and Bill, it was mandatory to stop every two to four hours.

I insisted on taking wipes into restrooms to scrub down the toilet seats, door knobs, and sink faucets. Buying food at restaurants was another issue.  Are COVID germs hiding inside that cheeseburger just waiting to invade our digestive systems? Did the cook wear a mask? Wash his hands? Come in sick? It even crossed my mind that a deranged server might be waiting for the chance to give me COVID by spitting on my Chicken Fried Steak. 

Neither of us got Covid on the trip down, but to this day I’m particular about germs when I travel. 

Oreo with Covid hairdo and Felix looking out window in our AirB&B

We arrived in Galveston just at sundown; it was light enough to see the buildings but not very easy to see the street signs. I knew the island wasn’t very big, so I was sure I could find our B&B without much trouble.

The streets in Galveston are numbered chronologically one way and alphabetically the other.

Unfortunately, the address to our B&B wasn’t any help: 16422 R-1/2*. Is Rosenberg Street the same as R Street? What does 1/2 mean? “For Pete’s sake,” I thought, “Who makes up these street names?” Just then, I noticed a sign saying “P Street.” 

“We must be getting close,” I said. I turned left on P, drove another block and turned left again, hoping to spot a house number close to 16422.

About that time, a police cruiser came up from behind and began flashing its lights at me. I pulled over. 

“Oh damn. Now what have I done?” I wondered, reviewing the past few miles in my head. Did I speed? Go through a stop sign? A red light?

The cops got out and walked up to my car, one on each side. The one on the driver’s side motioned for me to roll down my window. 

“Do you know why we stopped you,” he asked.

“No, I don’t,” I said. “Sorry.”

“You drove down a one-way street the wrong way.” 

“Oh my god!” I said. “I didn’t realize it. I’m so sorry.” I struggled to hold back the tears welling at the bottom of my eyes.

“You barely missed a car and almost caused an accident,” he continued. 

“I am so sorry,” I repeated, unable to hold tears now flowing down my face. How could I miss seeing a car coming at me on the one-way street? Am I blind? The driver must have been furious! OMG, I could’ve been shot! What a terrible way to start our new life on this island.

“Where are you heading,” the cop asked?

“I’m looking for our B&B,” I said and gave him the address.

He patiently explained how to get there. My mind was not fully engaged because I was mentally counting up the cost of the ticket I was surely going to get and how it would affect my insurance payments.

“I’m not going to give you a ticket,” he said and then patiently explained that O and P street were one way streets running the length of the east island. I later found out the locals used these streets to get from one end of town to the other when tourists are in town. 

“Thank you,” I said, breathing a sigh of relief. 

I could see the police watching as I pulled out and continued on my way. I carefully looked for one-way signs, stop signs, and red lights. We finally arrived at the B&B and discovered it was a garage apartment behind a house, only accessible via a skinny, gravel-covered, trash-can-lined alley. No wonder I got lost. 

I pulled into the gate, parked the car, and stared up at the apartment. It was located up a flight of steep, open-air, wooden stairs. Bill is legally blind, has Alzheimer’s, and uses a walker to get around. How are we going to navigate this setup?

I sucked in a big breath, phoned the landlord, and informed him we had arrived. There was nothing I could do about the stairs right now. I might as well get on with it.

Grabbing the disinfectant, I said, “Don’t get out of the car. I’ll be back to get you in a minute.” 

I retrieved the key from our landlord, climbed to the top of the stairs, unlocked the door, and thought, “It’s going to be a really long ten days waiting for our furniture to arrive.”

*Address changed to protect the landlord!


Friday, March 1, 2024

Writing Practice

Soon after moving to Galveston Island, I began attending OLLI, otherwise known as Osher Lifelong Learning Center. It's a place for folks age 55+ to meet friends and exercise both the mind and body. I've taken many classes here; some successfully, some not. But one class that sticks in my mind is the day I attended a writing practice class and met Debbie and Lori. We hit it off like the three musketeers; and, after the class ended, we continue to meet once a week to share our writing successes and failures. 

At the end of each writing session, Debbie creates a list of prompts to jumpstart our writing for the following week. This has led us to create stories, poems, and memoirs. Stories that reveal the innermost secrets of our lives, stories set in fictional times and places, and stories that are, frankly, not worth reading.

Sadly, I've used all my writing prompts for this week and now I'm stumped. What do I want to write about? My activities? My friends? My struggles? Dreams? Goals? Failures? Somewhere in this messy list is something that needs expounding upon or even alluded to. 

What? Nothing? 

I'm a blank.

I need to find my own prompt for today, so I spend five minutes searching. Zilch. Zero. Zip. Nothing excites me. Not one prompt makes me want to bare my soul or chastise society. Maybe today isn't a good day for writing. I mean, really, how long can one ramble on and expect her friends to listen! 

Last chance - first word that comes into my mind - headache. 

I DO have an allergy headache. It resides over my left eye and nostril, beating and throbbing like a bass drummer out of sync. Can't anyone shut him up? Usually my Vicks Vapo-inhaler makes it disappear, but not today. In fact, last night it kept me up several hours, pounding away like a blacksmith on his anvil. I finally smeared Vicks Vapo-Rub over my nose and top lip until the throbbing waned. Slowly, I drifted back to sleep, and now...it's back like a concert I do not want to attend. Banging away like a 3-year old with a Christmas present from an uncle who hates me. "Shut up," I scream. "BANG," is its reply. No wonder I can't write.